Author: Calista

- high schooler - poet - wanderer
Posted in Poetry

Laughter

Posted on by Calista 
Laughter 
An easily used mask
A fake detail
Put in place
To hide the pain
That resides inside
 
Laughter
Easily broken 
By thoughts
So harsh 
A bitter taste and tears forced forward
 
Laughter
A bubble of acid 
Climbing up my throat
Burning my insides
Coating it with it’s harsh lies
 
Laughter
Clogging my throat with it’s burning acid
Choking me
Coughing from the sickness that is the laughter
 
Laughter
How I wish it was carefree
Young carefree laughter that doesn’t burn
The kind of laughs that are infectious
Laughter that fills rooms and warms hearts
Not the laughter that causes me to choke and scream

~ hiddengirl75

Posted in Poetry

Pain

Posted on by Calista 
Pain is a feeling
That flows through your veins
 
It is caused by fretting 
Over people who couldn’t care less
And the stress
That messes with your head
 
It is the deep ache inside
That needs to be fixed
But who has the time
To stop and find the rest
That is needed to tape up the whole in my chest
 
Pain is the feeling
That you get 
When you’re broken and hunched over
With all your regrets
 
It is what lives inside you 
And dares you to fix
Knowing that nothing 
Will mend your broken bits

~ hiddengirl75

Posted in Poetry

Opinionated

Posted on by Calista 
To say 
I'm not very opinionated 
To start with
Is not the truth
 
I have much to say 
But words escape me
 
My mind goes blank 
And I hold my tongue
 
Assuming things
You fill the blanks
And say
Well you're not very opinionated to begin with
 
But you've only seen
A part of me
 
A part that's grown
Or better yet,
Shrunk
 
As school has taught me 
To hold my tongue.

~ hiddengirl75

~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~

A Piece of Wisdom

Speak your mind, even if your voice shakes.

Maggie Smith
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Midnight boredom

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Oh so bored
Sitting in silence 
The clock ticking 
Pen scratching
Paper flapping
My own beating
 
Thumps 
So loud and clear
A pounding 
That resonates 
Ever so near
 
Thoughts that collide
At the fastest of speeds
 
Penned words 
Glaring back at me
Underlined and bolded
Ever so carefully 
 
Merging together
Problems and thoughts,
future and past,
hopes and dreams.
 
Leaving me behind
Bored and bleeding.

~ hiddengirl75

Posted in Poetry

Mumbo Jumbo

Posted on by Calista 
Mumbo Jumbo
That's my phrase
To describe 
What goes on 
Up in my brain
Too many thoughts 
And projects to name
Personal 
Or otherwise publically named
Take deep breaths
And write it out
But wait...
Hold up...
I forgot it all just now. 
What a mess. 
What to do?
Nothing ever comes out just right.
What about for you?
You see, 
When I start to multi-task
Lamas yodle 
And start to to ask
And look
There it goes
My mumbo jumbo mind
Trailing off again
And now I've forgotten
The next 5 lines
For now I'll try
To organize
My mumbo jumbo mind.

~ hiddengirl75

P.S. Isn’t my little messy brain dude, just so adorable. I drew him myself on the google drawings thingy in drive. I’m kind of proud of it. 😆

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Unknown

Posted on by Calista 
I don’t get it
Do you?
I don’t know
What’s this feeling 
I can’t show 

A perfect day 
Secrets and jokes
Merely moments ago

In a blink
Im slipping
Falling

Memories 
Newly formed
Yet out of reach

Grasping 
At blanks
And touching air

Seconds before
Hanging with friends
Now isolated
And lonely

A ditch 
I dug 
For myself

Thoughts there 
With words
Not able to form

No one to talk to
To understand
And no words 
To describe

What a ditch 
I dug 
Huh. 

~ hiddengirl75