Posted in Poetry

Panic

I feel lost
And shaken

In my chest
This heavy feeling
Don’t ask me
I don’t know why

Breathing
Hurts

I feel like I’m drowning

Then again,
It’s nothing like drowning

I’ve been close once
To drowning
I mean

This is nothing like that

I can’t-
Panicking
I’m panicked
I can’t-

My brain hurts
And my chest is heavy

I feel so lost
Drowning
Not

Can’t breath
Chest heavy

Why? please...

Until we meet again…have all my love ❤

~hiddengirl75

P.S. Featured Image by 愚木混株 Cdd20 from Pixabay

P.P.S. I don’t necessarily think this is a good poem, but I decided to post it anyway because I figured that poetry isn’t black and white, good or bad, and if anything it’ll just show that sometimes I write bad poetry, or at least something that I think is bad.

Posted in Music Monday

Music Monday: Retro Love – BOYHOOD

Heyo peeps!! Welcome back to the second Music Monday on my blog! >_<

Music Monday is hosted by Drew at The Tattooed Book Geek. It’s basically sharing one of your favorite song and it’s lyrics every Monday, and it’s open to anyone to do!

Today, I’m going to share Retro Love by BOYHOOD. It’s a k-pop/k-indie song that I’ve recently been in love with. It has a very retro vibe, the music video is also really cute. I hope you enjoy it!

✨ Retro Love – BOYHOOD ✨ 📹

English Translation

Just like that, just like that
The day before yesterday, you looked at me just like that
Making me lonely, lonely
Because you are just you without any 'Why'
 
I must have been a little tipsy last night
I'm sorry no matter what you say
Even though the sky is blue
I have to go take a walk alone
 
It seems like you only see me as a friend
Live however you want to live
 
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
Since it's all over, baby, come take a look
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
It's probably still a cold winter outside
Are you okay?
 
It's probably still a cold winter
 
A blue, a blue
A new blue pretentious look of yours
You make me, you make me
Confused again
I've got no clue, just beat everything up
 
I got a nervous
I'll Retro Love you
Even though the sky is black
I feel like I have to sleep alone
 
Even in dreams you and I are still only friends
Live however you want to live
 
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
Since it's all over, baby, come take a look
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
It's probably still a cold winter outside
Are you okay?
 
It's probably still a cold winter
 
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
Since it's all over, baby, come take a look
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
It's probably still a cold winter outside
Are you okay?
 
It's probably still a cold winter.

Korean Lyrics

넌 그렇게 그렇게
넌 그저께 날 그저 그렇게 봐
난 외롭게 외롭게
넌 왜 없게 넌 그저 그러니까
 
어제는 조금 취했었나 봐
미안해 네가 뭐라든 간에
하늘도 파란데
홀로 가야지 산책
 
넌 나를 친구로만 생각하네
너 마음대로 하도록 하세요
 
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
다 끝났으니 그대여 살펴가시오
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
밖은 아직도 추운 겨울일 텐데
Are you okay?
 
추운 겨울일 텐데
 
파렇게 파렇게
새파란 네 가식적인 모습이
나를 또 나를 또
햇갈리게 해
모르겠다 다 때려 쳐
 
I got a nervous
I'll Retro Love you
하늘도 검은데
홀로 자야지 선감
 
꿈에서도 너와 나 친구 사이
너 마음대로 하도록 하세요
 
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
다 끝났으니 그대여 살펴가시오
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
밖은 아직도 추운 겨울일 텐데
Are you okay?
 
추운 겨울일 텐데
 
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
다 끝났으니 그대여 살펴가시오
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
Rock and Rock and Roll baby
밖은 아직도 추운 겨울일 텐데
Are you okay?
 
추운 겨울일 텐데

Lyrics and translations courtesy of: Lyrics Translate and Musixmatch

Lyrics by BOYHOOD (남동현)

Composed by BOYHOOD (남동현)

Arranged by BOYHOOD (남동현), 엄주혁

Until we meet again…

~hiddengirl75 ❤

Posted in Fun Friday, Talking Story

Fun Friday: Two Podcasts I Love!

Heyo peeps!! Is it odd to see me posting three times in a week? It was kind of weird for me but let’s both get used to it because I hope to establish this as my weekly posting schedule. One of my goals for this year is to post more and that’s what I intend to do! So without further ado let me introduce you guys to Fun Friday, my Friday post theme.

Along with Music Monday and my Wednesday poetry posts, I hope to keep up Fun Friday. When I was in middle school, my advisory (homeroom) held Fun Fridays where we would play games or do something fun. Rather than playing games I have decided to dedicate Fridays to posts that are more personal to me (like my poems aren’t already pieces of my heart and brain lol). These posts will range from things I love, my fears, or just fun discussions.

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Today, for my first Fun Friday post I decided to begin with something light and easy, podcasts! I’ve recently gotten really into podcasts. I used to think that I wouldn’t have the attention span to pay attention to a 30 minute podcast with no visuals but I’ve found that they are great to listen to while getting ready in the morning or while doing chores.

Two podcasts that I’ve found myself listening to often are “SciShow Tangents” and “I Love It!” I haven’t caught up to the most recent episodes yet but they are both really interesting!

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SciShow Tangents

“SciShow Tangents” is a fun way to learn intriguing science facts and is hosted by Hank Green, Ceri Riley, Stefan Chin, and Sam Schultz. They amaze and educate through a series of different friendly competitions based around a theme. There’s quick talking, tangents, and tons of odd facts.

I have to admit I at first only looked at it because Hank Green was one of the hosts but I quickly became intrigued by the odd themes and facts. I now hope to be able to spout out random facts and get some confused looks. Heh, don’t mind me just trying to start conversations. 😅 😂

Can be found @

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I Love It!

“I Love It!” is hosted by Matthew Gaydos and it invites people to talk about the things they love. The topics range from the Scripps National Spelling Bee (that’s the first episode) to Star Wars.

I really love this podcast because I enjoy listening to people talk about what they love. It really inspires me; many of the interests I have is because someone expressed such a strong passion for it that it hooked my attention too. I haven’t pursued very many of the interests for prolonged periods of time but it’s always interesting to hear about the different subjects that people can talk about for hours.

Can be found @

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While both can be found on different websites, I listen to them on Spotify. If you end up looking into on of them or both, I hope you enjoy them as much as I do. >~<

Until we meet again…comment below what your favorite podcast is and enjoy some time catching up or re-listening to it.

~hiddengirl75 ❤

P.S.

A Piece of Wisdom

Image is from Pixabay, the quote, and the editing done to put the quote over it is not.
Posted in Poetry

Nighttime

I love the night
My thoughts flow freely
An abundance of poems,
Stars, dreams…

Silence
It’s warm
Soft noises
Pen scratching

I love the night

It’s quiet
Empty
Dark

My thoughts flow
Unstoppable
Headaches
Heartaches

The silence
It’s cold
My bones hurt
It’s deafening

Lights are bright
Stars invisible
Dreams Nightmares

I hate the night

Until we meet again…

~hiddengirl75 ❤

P.S. Featured Image by 愚木混株 Cdd20 from Pixabay

P.P.S. A new video is going to be posted on my youtube channel around now, look out for it! It’s one of my more recent poems and I had planned for it to be the first poem I did in spoken word but that obviously changed lol. Thanks for your support!

Posted in Music, Music Monday, Talking Story

Music Monday: Happy World Music Day!

Heyo peeps!! Happy World Music Day or Fête de la Musique!! Also welcome to my first Music Monday post! Wow, two things in one post, how exciting lol.

So…let’s start with what Music Monday is. Music Monday was started by Drew at The Tattooed Book Geek. It’s basically sharing one of your favorite song and it’s lyrics every Monday, and it’s open to anyone to do!

Today’s Music Monday is a bit special though as it is also World Music Day, originally known as Fête de la Musique. It takes place every June 21st and began in France, but has now spread across the world! It encourages people to share their favorite music and play music in public places.

I was inspired and also educated by Pavithra’s post for it, before today I had no idea there was a world music day. It’s kind of funny though, my timezone is a bit behind a lot of other people’s so as I’m writing this it isn’t June 21st yet and when I post this on my June 21st it might be over for a lot of people. Anyway, before I got slightly off track, I was saying this post was a special Music Monday, that’s because I’m sharing a whole playlist and not just one song!

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✨ My Playlist ✨

English:

  • At My Worst – Pink Sweat$
  • Hopelessly – Reinaeiry
  • Grace Kelly – MIKA

Kpop:

  • Wish for You – Kang In Soo and Lee Sang
  • Never Loved This Way Before – CHEEZE
    • This song is used in one of my favorite webtoons, Odd Girl Out (it’s so cute, wholesome, and relatable)
  • After School – Weekly

French:

  • On Ne Vit Qu’Une Fois – Sidoine
  • The Wall Between Us (Ce mur qui nous sépare) – Lou & Lenni-Kim
  • Près des étoiles – Mickaël Pouvin Ft. Jérôme Clerville

Most of these songs are from my On Repeat playlist on Spotify! I update it quite frequently, feel free to check it out.

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I often find my favorite songs by just letting Spotify play or by listening to youtube playlists that people make. Finding songs is one of my favorite past times ^-^

Recently though I’ve been play the Wish You’s OSTs on repeat. I recently watched the drama, it’s listed as a movie though on Netflix I believe. It was really good, very wholesome and I loved the music. Highly recommend watching it or listening to the songs!

Until we meet again…share your favorite songs with someone and dance around, it’s fun I promise!

Happy World Music Day! 🎶

~hiddengirl75 ❤

I did a thing…

Hi! So it’s really late at night for me, 12:33 am to be precise, and I have done a thing. I also have homework I really need to do so I’m going to keep this shortish…

Basically I have a youtube channel now. O.o

Yeah, I know I can barely keep up with blogging and now a youtube channel…I’m insane. But the idea of turning my poems into Spoken Word Poetry has been floating in my head since I first listened to a video from luna poems. (She’s great >_<)

So yeah…my first video…check it out maybe? Don’t hate on me please…I am a nervous wreck that can’t really take criticism.

Until we meet again…have all my love ❤

~hiddengirl75

Posted in Poetry

Ready or NOT

I'm scared
Not ready to be an adult.

College student
Not college 
Who knows

Middle school me had everything figured out
College
Major 
Ready to leave the state 

Now I don't know anything
Don't want to study for tests 
Or walk the stage 

I just want to be a kid
Twirl around in the rain 
Laugh 
Be rebellious

Stay out past midnight 
Pancakes at 2 in the morning 
Drive around with no destination 

There's 2 years 'til I walk that stage 
No drivers license yet 
Or broken rules

I've laid low 
Stayed safe 
And studied for those tests 

I'm tired 
Anxious
And I just want to be a kid

Until we meet again…be a kid, have fun ❤

~hiddengirl75

P.S. Featured Image by 愚木混株 Cdd20 from Pixabay

Posted in Poetry

Space

There’s an itch
At the very back of my head 
“I did something wrong”
“It’s my fault” 

I am 
Terrified 
Of rejection

And now, 
It’s staring me in the face

Messages unread
Unanswered
Only my bubbles to fill the gap

I’ve tried again
“Maybe I’m overthinking it” 
“It was just bad timing” 
But at some point
It becomes pointless

Too scared
To ask
To confront
Too scared of rejection

So the itch remains
“I was too clingy” 
“Too pushy” 
“Annoying” 

“Maybe it all meant nothing” 
“I didn’t pay enough attention”

“I overshared” 
“Didn’t listen” 

Texts remain unanswered
The itch growing stronger
An added ache in my stomach

I think I’ll just give up now
Space
That’s the answer

A void
A gap
Space

It hurts

The itch remains
Egged on by my fear
Maybe my pride
“I won’t text first” 

… *hiddengirl75 is typing*

Until we meet again…stay safe ❤

~hiddengirl75

P.S. Featured Image by 愚木混株 Cdd20 from Pixabay

Posted in Poetry

Skies

I don’t know what to say
But when I see a sky I think of you
It’s breathtaking and colorful
Everything I’d like to share 
Photos don’t capture its essence
The colors are muted, almost dead
So I don’t show you
I could explain!
But words couldn’t do it justice, so I don’t. 
Is it enough to know it made me think of you?
But it’s so easy to overthink and that message is never sent.
It was orange and pink, red too… maybe some purple
The sun was setting and the sky glowed… but you’ll never know. 

I saw the sky again, blue. 
Breathtaking and beautiful 
The phone didn’t get it right, again. 
I thought of you
When I saw the deep blues and turquoise. 
Why? I don’t know
But skies make me think of you

I suppose it’s more than just skies
Everything makes me think of you
When I’m excited one of my first thoughts is to tell you
Or if I have a song stuck in my head
Or if I had a bad day
That meme reminded me of you too
Gosh you’re everywhere 
And I don’t think it’s that way for you

It hurts but,
Whatever this is it’s probably one-sided, right?
I don’t know how you are around others but I’m probably not special
And I highly doubt anything makes you think of me

But it’s so easy to dream, so I do
Because skies make me think of you 

~hiddengirl75

P.S. The photo is mine.

Posted in Poetry

I want…

I want to live in the moment.
I want to look at the stars and wonder.
I want to talk to the moon and dream.
I want to wake early to see the sunrise. 
I want to close my eyes just for a moment and simply be. 

But the world won’t let me. 

My deadlines hang in the air above me. 
My homework creates piles that drown me. 
My doom ticks closer with each passing day, each passing breath. 

There is no time to live in the moment. 
There is no time for me to wonder, dream, be, breathe, 
or even get a decent amount of sleep.

~hiddengirl75

Image by skeeze from Pixabay